Mom guilt is real and it is constant, at least in my experience. I feel guilty about everything. For not giving my son, Morris, ALL organic food, for getting mad when I should have been more patient, for being too lenient, for letting him have too much screen time, for not playing with him enough, for not allowing him to be bored, for him being bored and so on… it’s exhausting. For years I felt guilty about not being able to give Morris a sibling. Most recently my mom guilt revolves around dividing my time and attention between my two babes equally.
The best/funniest thing about this sweet and simple baby girl nursery, with light pink accents, is that it is currently my husband’s room as Rose and I bunk together.
It’s a good thing Morris thinks cactus’s are “pretty cool” because his bedroom may have a few of them in it. The room is designed around this amazing rug from Lorena Canals. I added a few pieces from a couple of local artists who I adore (a print and a pillow from Paula Lukey and prints and play-tent from Whimsy & Kind), some simple IKEA furniture and repainted an old bookshelf and dresser that I already had.
Its hard as a mother not to obsess over baby development. I’m trying to be a bit more relaxed this time around and let Rose ‘meet her milestones’ in her own time. That being said, it’s so much fun to watch her learn new “tricks”; smile, giggle (my all time favourite), grab toys, roll over etc. I was amazed at how quickly she started to track objects above her and started using a play gym while she relaxed on her back in her Dockatot. Read more…
I gained 50 lbs during my pregnancy with Rose. Since she weighed a whopping 6.2 lbs at birth, I was still quite a bit larger after she was born than I am used to. And so my weight loss journey begins. Over the past few months I’ve shed about 20 lbs, mainly thanks to breastfeeding. But no thanks to Nutella I haven’t been able to lose anymore.
Shop Pink Blush
My current uniform is tights and whatever lose fitting top/sweater will cover my butt. I’d love some new clothes, but refuse to spend too much money on outfits that (I hope) will not fit me for too much longer. I selected a few pieces from Shop Pink Blush that I can wear now AND continue to wear once I shed the extra pounds. These clothes are reasonably priced, soft, cozy, and cute.
Up until Morris was 5 months old he was a terrible sleeper. He would wake hourly, for no apparent reason, and would need to be rocked/nursed/walked around the house until he fell back asleep (I wish I had had a dockatot). I was exhausted and frustrated. I did a bunch of reading and was given some sleep training info from a friend who had done it successfully. We desperately needed our evenings back as a couple and our sleep back at night. And so the day Morris turned 5 months this is what we did to sleep train him. (*Disclaimer: I am NOT a sleep coach, this is just worked for us… please see below for a recommendation of a gentle sleep coach if my method doesn’t work for you)
I knew before she was born that I wanted to co-sleep with Rose. Morris was a terrible sleeper as a baby and only slept well in my arms while I spent the night awake making sure he was safe and I wasn’t rolling over onto him. We tried 3 different bassinetes and a swing, but he wanted to be close to me. I was dreading the same sleepless nights with Rose so when a friend told me about the DockATot it sounded like the answer to my baby sleep prayers, and it has been. I sleep soundly next to Rose, in her DockATot, knowing that she is safe. .
Rose’s birth story
The night before Rose was born I woke up a couple of times to Morris yelling that he was thirsty. I didn’t think that this would be the start of her birth story. At 5am I got up to get him something to drink again I noticed my water had broken. Not knowing what this meant in terms to labour progression, I paged my midwives. I was told that I would likely go into labour, “sometime soon, in the next 24 hours or so”.
So my husband stayed home from work and we made plans for Morris to be taken care of that day. My midwife phoned mid-afternoon to check in. She said that we had a 24 hour window for labour to start naturally. After that we would need to go to the hospital to induce it medically. She suggested using a breast pump to start contractions. Although I had heard of this I was skeptical, but was willing to try to avoid induction. Using the breast pump caused contractions instantly. Unfortunately, they were mild and didn’t progress over the next few hours.